Saudade

I am terrified that it will always be you. I’m not saying I’ll never fall in love with another. I’m certain that I will, and she will be bold and silly and considerate and clever. But she won’t be you. And I am terrified that you are the feeling I’ll forever be chasing, the specter with which all others will unknowingly compete.

Breanna by window. hands over heart

Self-portrait

Saudade is a Portuguese word that expresses profound longing, melancholy, or nostalgia for someone or something that has been loved and then lost. It roughly translates to “the love that remains.”